Friday, 15 February 2013

My first social alienation

It's been a long time since I have posted anything on my blog. I've been relatively busy.

I am still in school, just coasting through, I cannot become engaged in my studies, before I have reached this progression in my vision, when I was able to study and act like a regular student, things came easier to me, so it wasn't as difficult to not put effort but also do well. Now everything is just so difficult.

I started a business. I have contemplated the idea of starting one for about a year now, and finally decided to go for it. I sell branded clothing and accessories to universities at the moment, and hopefuly over time enter into other areas. By no means am I a Bill Gates at the moment, or will be anytime soon. But I did recieve an order from a local university and will be delivering the product within the next 2 weeks, which is exciting.

So I have been dating my girlfriend now since July. It is nice having a girlfriend, I care about her alot, and she is my best friend. A big issue with our relationship: Neither of us can drive. Considering she lives in the middle of no where, there is no public transit access. To get around this complication, my mom drives us back and forth, she lives 45 minutes away, so you could imagine how timely the drives can be. Fortunately my mom is a very wonderful woman and told me, when my license got taken away, she told me she would drive me where I need to go, no questions asked (to a reasonable extent).

I have never had issues with not being able to drive. I still dont to be honest, and for the most part, other people understand my situation and are sensitive towards my struggles. Today that has changed. My girlfriend has a friend, a massive massive bitch. This girl does not have a single positive quality about her, she is a huge piece of shit. Not only does she put my girlfriend down anytime she has the chance, but also undermines her in any way she can. It wasn't until this week she said something about me:

Me and my mom drove to her school to pick her up on valentines day, it was a surprise. The next day, my girlfriends friend (a different friend) said, where were you today? She responded with "Kyle drove me home this afternoon, the roads were bad I had to stay over" the piece of shit friend said, and i quote
"Kyle's mom drove you home, don't kid yourself, your boyfriend doesn't even have his license"
Then she continued to talk about, in short, how its embarrassing to be almost 21 years old and not have a drivers license. To be honest, I really couldn't care less if she thinks im less of a man, or less of a person because I do not have a license, or if she believes not having a license has a reflection on me as a person, but she really has some nerve to even open her mouth. I would be embarrassed if i was her, not me.
Anyways, there are many sensitive people, but it takes hundreds of sensitive people to make up for that one insensitive one. I was diagnosed 2 years ago march, 2 years is comming up really fast, it has only been 2 years and it seems like the ammount of  issues i face pile up, I couldnt imagine 20 years of this

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

back to school part 1

So its been a super long time since ive last posted,,, working long hours at a lower rate than every other person working in my plant is not only depressing, but upsetting. I literally get paid 50 percent less than everyone else, but work 200 percent harder... does that make any sense? My co-workers are arrogant fucks who feel like students are not only less intelligent but also they have tghe mentality that we are their personal slaves/servants. They fucked with the wrong student because i dont let people treat me like a bitch, they figured me out quick fortunately.

So i have had a little bitt of a lifechange as of late. More specifically i have a girlfriend.... thats a crazy thought eh? This is my first legitimate girlfriend to be honest. I am still a little unsure fi i even want one, she deffinately likes me alot more than i like her and as i get back in to school, it is so hard to imagine being with one single person. Ive always said "I am too young to be in a commited relationdhip. Then on the other hand, i really do get along with this girl and whenever we hagout we have an amazing time.Shes good looking, but still, its a tough call.

My main issue with her: I think she wants to get pregnant. Yeah, thats fucked. She watches all of these teen pregnancy television shows and she always makes little jokes about getting pregnant and sutff. I tell her to stop, and she doesnt really understand how much of a turnoff it is when she talks about stuff like that, she will learn the hard way if she continues cuz im not going to put up with that shit. She continually tried to not use a condom, and refuses to go on birth control. Ive never asked her why she doesnt want to use a condom, but when she tried not to, i throw her off of me ha, and when i talk about birth control she always sayd "she doesnt want to getfat" im no doctor, but if you dont want to get fat, then go to the gym you lazy person.

Apparently im currently in a pregnancy scare. She is telling me she is waiting on her period, we will see what happens, she said it happens all the time, lets just hope so, there is no room in this world for a kyle junior, plus if i do have a baby thats the first and last one, im getting the chop, itll be awckward getting a visectamy at 20

anyways im gonna listen to this lecture im in right now, the instructor is annyoing and fucked but thats how it goes, gotta do welll this year
Be safe!

Sunday, 1 July 2012

Why is someone obligated to accept you?

This is sparked from ym previous blog posts a couple months ago "What makes a person gay?" although no one ever comments on it, it seems to be a pretty popular post. Its also entertaining to see what people search in google to get to that page. The latest one was "My friends wont accept my new sexual preference" my question to this is "why should they?".

You have been lieing to them throughout your whole friendship about your sexual orientation, and thats a major part of your life. I would be offended. Honesty is an important thing to me, if im honest with you i expect you to be honest with me especcialy if you are a friend. On top of it, why should someone be expected to accept homosexualty? It is something that is arguably "unnatural" it is deffinately not a traditional relationship and throughout history, it is against almost all major organized religions, and in some ways it is pretty disgusting/unsanitary.

Im not homophobic, my best friend came out about 8 months ago... i was fine with it, i was just dissapointed in him. I knew he was gay, ever since i met him i just knew he was gay, i asked numerous times and he said no he liekd girls. Why couldnt he tell me? People will read this and say "oh you arent in his shoes he just wasnt ready" maybe not but we talked about everything, i even told him if he told me i owuldnt care, but he refused. It is very naice of people to expect everybody to accept everybody, thats not realistic nor do i even want that.

There is more advanced in the acceptance of homosexuality. But i say just give it up. Itll never be widely accepted due to the cultural traditions, politics, social issues, and religious issues, and not be upset at people for this is just ignorant. Gay people expect everyone to lovethem, but  everyone doesnt love heterosexual people either so stop marching the streets naked and just fall in love and live your life with hwoever you want

Thursday, 28 June 2012

You know what really pisses me off...

when a terrible musician (who probably doesnt even write there own music despite a baby having the ability to write it) writes a song and then when you try and find that song that an amazing band had wrote years prior, you are unbable to find it. I am trying to find google the song wide awake by audioslave, and the only shit that comes up is katy perry, katy perry is total garbage, chris cornell is probably the top 5 best musicians of all time, and he is being flooded by this terrible slut? This is a tragedy.

Monday, 18 June 2012

Im a chick magnet, for very ugly women

I dont know what it is (maybe i have an idea) but ugly girls are always after me. Im getting alot of messages online, but all from very very unattractive girls, its kind of depressing. This my theory: Im not ugly, but im no supermodel, im just a regular guy. So lets say im a 7 out of 10, girls that are 3-6 out of ten think, 'I might actually have a chance with this guy" so they try and trade up. Im not kidding you should see some of these girls, i wish i  could post pictures of them on here of them (i really could, but im already kind of being rude could you imagine if i posted pictures and then explaiend whyeach one was ugly that wouldnt ben ice at all) but im not even exhgurating, some of the ugliest women ive seen.

When i signed up i was so excited, i saw all these super hotgirls, i got my hopes up, i thought if i sgned up id be getting emails every 20 minutes from hot girls lol (i must have been dreaming) but come on not even one? The only girl who wasnt too bad posted a picture of herself i na bikini bending over and sticking otu her ass.... i dont want herpes. Ill stick it out for a little logner and see what hapens, until then stay safe people